who let’s themselves be.

I just wish I could disappear.But of course, I can’t. When I think about it I don’t know if I would disappear if given the oppertunity. The thought of falling down into a black abyss of nothing is more pleasing that actually doing so. What I really want is a life. I really want to be fulfilled. I want to feel like a million buck even though I look like shit. How is that even possible? And why do I have so many problems? I just want to be happy, I want to be better than I am. And I want to take you with me. Sometimes I just want to disappear, simply because the thought of falling into that abyss just isn’t pleasing enough. I want the reality of it all.

really??

it’s been about an hour now, i’m just gonna let you sleep.

for feeling as though you don’t care, when you don’t show that you do?

i suppose you did at one point but when i got mad for things unaccomplished, you gave up.

you said forever though…so why are you giving up? i’m not.